Fear, Flying, Family, a Debate, and Six Songs
Fear and Flying
I’m flying somewhere over the U.S. Right now. We don’t have one of those fancy flight map things. But I really hate flying. Every bump, every noise causes my anxiety to spike. I just am not fond of it. Yes it’s faster than a car but still it’s just. Idk.
I’m on my way back to Minnesota right now from seeing family in Arizona. Or well at least as many were around. Some of my cousins are still in college and busy with other things. It was a good trip. I reconnected with a cousin who was like 10 the last time I saw her. She’s grown quite a bit and is in high school now. Though I hate to admit she can kick my butt in Ms. Pac-Man. I saw aunts and uncles who I haven’t seen in years. Even though people have been known to come out and visit Chicago. But even still then I haven’t lived close to Chicago in a few years. So even when they are in the Midwest I don’t see them. Granted I also had to deal with one uncle who tested the limits of how much I could deal with. That was “fun.”
Honesty I didn’t think I would have such a hard time leaving out there. Some days I just forget how much Minnesota depresses me.
However…I’m flying back to Minnesota to direct the Franken/McFadden debate on Sunday. All of our debate prep starts tomorrow after WCCO This Morning. Should be interesting. I’m a little nervous about it. But still watch live on Sunday. 10am on WCCO 4!!
Right now during my flight I’m catching up on my podcasts and listening to KCRW’s Guest DJ project. Kind of trying to pass some time right now as we fly over the middle of nowhere since I decided not to pay for WiFi on this leg. Wasn’t worth it because I couldn’t bundle it with priority boarding like I did on the way out.
So anyway here is what right now I think would be my six…
- The first song I have on my list has a lot of personal significance to it. It is the song that Candace and I wore out in the juke box at the old Dairy Queen in Palatine during high school. She and I literally played that song every time we went in there. My first pick is Piano Man by Billy Joel.
- The second song on my list also has a lot of personal meaning connected with Candace. Every time I’ve ever made her a mix tape or a mix CD I would put this song on it. Sometimes on the label & sometimes hidden at the end. It was always on there because it is hard having your BFF halfway across the country. My second pick is Pink Floyd’s Wish You Were Here.
- The third song is something I found at a time when I was having a hard time accepting some things about myself. I love the whole album, Laura Jane Grace’s lyrics, combined with a book that came out at relatively the same time, helped me get along. So it’s hard to pick just one song. The album, all 20 or so minutes of it, needs to really be listened to as one unit. Here is the title track of the newest Against Me! album, True Trans Soul Rebel.
- The fourth is also from an album that I have tracked many times while I’m having a bad day or been completely stressed out. I absolutely love Tori Amos’s voice and music so it’s no shock that I chose something off of Scarlet’s Walk. It’s a really neat album written as I recall about someone trying to go across the country in search of someone. I Can’t See New York is probably the longest track on the album but it’s one I’ll listen to on repeat.
- I’ve waffled several times on my remaining pick which happens to be the fifth song because I wanted to close with friends (see below.) It’s hard to chose just one song to pick for here. I know some people will be mad that I haven’t picked Beyoncé for anything. And I love the entirety of her self-titled album, as well as songs like Sweet Dreams and Single Ladies. But I think I’m going to have to go with another song and artist. This came into my life when I was sitting on my couch watching music videos on Much Music USA or America or whatever it was called at the time. The music video is powerful imagery and the song is about self-love and empowerment. It’s Fighter by Christina Aguilera.
- As I mentioned above, the sixth pic is from a group of friends of mine. I first heard them when I was doing an air shift for Marquette Radio. They had formatted the station at the time and therefore limited what we could play. Pete, my cohost and I, basically spent the first few weeks playing “randomly pick a CD.” Sunspot’s album Radio Free Earth was probably one of the first albums we played on air. And the song we played that fateful day was Prozac Girl. We picked it mostly on the name as the song to play and it started my love for the band right there.
Header Pic: Me driving Uncle Tom’s 1956 VW Bug!!